domingo, 30 de agosto de 2009

This is getting lonely

sábado, 29 de agosto de 2009

#27 God damn you half japanese boys (8)

So Burdett Road Failed again... big deal.
In exactly 3.5 hours I'll stalk teacher, fake boobs, chinese, and Trent Lane.

Yesterday and the day before I went to uni, to see ex fuck buddy, and to stalk the guy from the bus, and to listen to this awsome class (Physics history)
Class starts at 1 pm, so I told EFB to keep a place for me, that I'd catch him in the classroom.
And I didn't find the fucking classroom, so I sitted in the cafeteria praying Cthulhu to
a) Tell ex fuck buddy I was lost, so he would go there to pick me
b) Suddenly find the guy from the bus, and stalk him to death.

Either happened.

I saw this guy...
Is he? *
He drinks some water, he's staring at me.
Is he?
If he's not, I'll look quite stupid.
He goes away...
WTF lets stalk.
So I followed him, pointed at him and asked if he was EFB's friend.
Yes, and you are...?
Ohh don't you wear glasses?
Sometimes lol

Blah blah.... he helps me find efb.
Physics History
Found him again, talked for a while.
And I almost blewed it xD

HJB-Oh, aren't you gonna eat?
k- Oh I don't eat.
HJB- What, don't you eat?
K- Erm (fuck fuck fuck) today
HJB- You're not eating today?
K-No, I mean, Im not hungry.
HJP- Oh I see.


Tell EFB how hot his friend is....


Now some history.

* The first day I took PH, EFB introduced me to his half japanese friend.
I was drooling.
His mother must be gorgeous.
He's FAR MUCH better than EFB, and Trent Lane and Guy from the Bus.
But, we didn't even talk.

He's not really tall, but he is taller than me (good enough for me), light brown hair, not long, but not short, beautiful eyes.
I mean BEAUTIFUL, he's got typical asian eyes (I can't remember the word for those kind of eyes) BUT they're yellowish green.
That looks pretty cool (usually asian eyes are dark).
Plus, he's so skinny.
And, the shape of his face *o*
Perfect jaw.
And... he's so skinny he has cheekbones.
EFB told me he's interested in my ffugly self.

Ahhh too many guys <3
(After like 3 months of monogamous "casual" sex with ex boyfriend)

Food, sometimes.
Haven't gained, but haven't lost.

miércoles, 26 de agosto de 2009

#26 Burdett Road.... again?

Well, today (yesterday?) I stuffed myself again, because Im a food slut.

I had a shitload of coffee (which explains why Im posting at 4:00 am) and a slice of cheesecake.
(SO FUCKING ORGASMIC) and 6 cookies.
Im the cookie monster.
And... Diet coke.
Im so fucking silly.

Im considering, once again, finding a Burdett Road off in the City.
Da Pueblo is so fucking boring.
I mean, Crap gang is here, ex boyfriend is here, but, hell, I need some smog.
Plus, I can stalk people in the City.
Im a stalker by nature.

I don't know... sometimes I think about getting back with ex boyfriend.
He's such a good fuck guy, and he loves me to death, and well, I love him too, in a non-monogamous way, but I do.

Why, Im a whore, and I so not deserve him.


Te adoro tronco.

martes, 25 de agosto de 2009

#25 ? Update

Oh well.
Im on a plateau.
Which, is great, coz I've been eating a lot lately.
I should be heavier.

So, weight, still the same.

On Thursday, Im going to uni to stalk this boy I saw twice.
Long black hair, green eyes, Metallica T shirt.
And he talked to me *o*
Well he said hello the second time I saw him but I was walking with ex fuck buddy, so I couldn't do much.

You know you love your ex fuck buddy when:

1- He was an average fuck and you still fucked him until he dumped you.
2- Hot guy on the bus tells you to sit next to him but you don't because efb is there.
3- You don't talk about your other (male) fucks in front of him, despite he does.
4- You don't stalk talk to other boys in front of him.
5- It hurts like hell knowing he tried to hit on ex best friend (when she was best friend)
6- Its been half a year, and I still like him.

Im in love

With this bitch.

sábado, 22 de agosto de 2009

#24 Hot for teacher.

So there's chinese, fake boobs, professor, and trent lane from school.
There's also the warhammer kiddo.

Make your bets xD

I've been b&p, starving, b&b xD
And, I managed to stay the same.

I kinda like my weight now.
I mean, Im a fucking cow, but.....
Im wearing a bra *o*
Ex boyfriend enjoys my overweight.
(ex boyfriend = best fuck ever)

miércoles, 19 de agosto de 2009

domingo, 16 de agosto de 2009

#23 Fuuuuuuuuuuuck

They hid the measuring tape.
But when it comes to my own fatness I've got a good memory.

So I look like this now:

Current weight : 110 lbs.

Chest: 31
Waist: 26
Muffin: 33 (fuck me, my "lovehandles" are larger than my boobs)
Ass: 35.5

I wear 3- 5 jeans.

So, my first goal is

100 lbs

Waist: 25 or less
Muffin: 32 or less.

If I do, I'll get myself a hooters sweat shirt.
(If I do, I'll get myself a hooters girl )

viernes, 14 de agosto de 2009

#22 Farewell the ashtray girl

So, Im a fat whore, I re- measured myself.
Im sooo going to fat girls hell.
But I'll start again on Monday (Food, Gym, Sex life)
I've had quite long "food vacations"

I'll be back in da pueblo.

Farewell Big City : (
Farewell Hottie from Maths (or Physics, sais pas)
Farewell Burdett Road
Farewell Sex Shop
Farwell ex fuck buddy : (

And today's song, is Changes.
Im not sure if it's Black Sabbath's, or Ozzy's but is a great song.
Today's mood, and a flashback.

I feel unhappy
I feel so sad
I lost the best friend
That I ever had
She was my woman
I loved her so
But its too late now
Ive let her go
We shared the years
We shared each day
In love together
We found a way
You lying trying waste of space.

lunes, 10 de agosto de 2009

#21 Quickie // Today's song

Im in the city, chez la mère.
I've been eating like a cow..
Im still looking for Burdett Road.
I still need to get laid.
Im still lonely.

Today's song : The Bends

I need to wash myself again to hide all the dirt and pain
'cause I'd be scared that there's nothing underneath
And who are my real friends?
Have they all got the bends?
Am I really sinking this low?
My baby's got the bends
We don't have any real friends
Just lying in a bar with my drip feed on
talking to my girlfriend waiting for something to happen
I wish it was the sixties
I wish I could be happy
I wish, I wish, I wish that something would happen.

jueves, 6 de agosto de 2009

#20 Scheisse.

Alternate title: Kat Wars Episode V
The Family strikes back.

Remember Im always bragging about the wonders of living alone, and all the "that's why I haven't got a family" ?
You probably don't because I only do it in real life.

But, Karma IS a bitch, sometimes (like this) even bitchier than me.
So all this time I've spent denying family and bragging about being alone turns to shit.
Because everytime I see family (aka E as father, et la mère) they always want to fucking eat.

Usually I see E once or twice a month, and its always fucking food.
I find it sweet of him trying to build the relationship we never had, but I think honestly, neither of us really wants it.
We can't stand each other for more than 2 hours, so I guess that's why its always food, we stuff our mouths so we have a good excuse to remain silent.
BUT WHY FUCKING FOOD?? Movies perhaps?//Spoiler, 13 yrs old anorexic daughter//
Fuck I know the answer.

So after a month of successfully avoiding him, tomorrow I'll be having breakfast with him.
Après, after almost a month of la mère neglecting me, she's coming to town, and guess what!!! We're eating together.
So screw my fast.
(Because, today I made up for yesterday's binge, and managed to stay on 99.2 acording to cheap little lying bastard)


No, he's not.

La mère's boyfriend will be out of town for a week, so we'll be spending some mother&daughter
bonding chez la mère in the city= EATING EVERY FUCKING DAY.


#19 To do list

Expect loyalty from no one but yourself.

So stop eating betraying yourself.

To do list:

*Stop eating.
*Start running. (OMG I did it!! Im proud of mylazyfatass-self)
*Get laid.
*Wash the dishes
*Clean cat's litter
*Tidy La mêre's room and mine.
*Do the laundry.
*Find a new Burdett Road.
*Find a new best friend ;P


miércoles, 5 de agosto de 2009

#18 She left me for a stoner.

She dumped me.
I binged.

I don't know which one makes me feel worse.

martes, 4 de agosto de 2009

#17 Kat Vs. The Pizza of Hell 2

Alternate title: Kat and the Conspiracy of Scales

I weighted myself again, fully clothed, on the cheap little lying bastard, and she read 104.7.
Then, I went to crapland, there I weighted again, on a scale in the GNC, and OMFG!!!
Fully clothed it read 104.05!!!!!
Its probably a conspiracy of scales.
So, I went to another scale, in the drugstore, and the same.

I guess... the cheap little lying bastard wasnt lying.

So, I guess, I wasn't 110.
I mean, I was, but, maybe most of it was shit and water weight.

So I went to Crapland, and I saw Ex Fuck Buddy there.

(Have you ever heard "I put a spell on you"? You probably had.
"And I don't care if you don't want me, because Im yours"
Well, everytime I talk about EFB, imagine that song as a

Ok, so, I went with Ex Fuck Buddy, his best friend, and his best friend's girl, off for Pizza.
A battle between THE will and pepperoni.
Pizza looked so sexy, HOT, staring right at me...
But... Im fucking stronger than cheese and pepperoni.

SO, THE will won.

Fuck you pizza from hell!

Ex Fuck Buddy said he'll give me a collar.
I don't know if he was just teasing me, but I really love the idea.

#16 CopyKat,

Well, Im gonna make my "fasting diary" too.
I read it chez poker face, and I thought it was an awsome idea.

3 years ago I started this log, and my target was, well , Day 1096.
I set day 1096 as the day I would be free.
Random freedom.
My first thought about it was "omg 3 years is a fucking lot"
And, the first month seemed eternal to me.
After I reached the 3 digits, days just passed by quickly.
I didn't realize when the first year passed by.

And well, Im boring you with this because, that's what I'll do.
Im taking it easy with the fasting.
120 hours of fasting.
Starting @ 12:00 pm 04/08/09

And, the only thing Im allowed to put in my mouth is diet drinks, coffee, tea, and water.
So be it.

Today I stepped on the scale and it read 101.
I mean, it's not that I don't like reading Im 101, but, Im self conscious, and I know you can't lose 9 pounds in a day, so that shit must be broken.
So I won't eat or drink anything till I get weighted somewhere else.
I better be going, coz' Im quite thirsty.

*UPDATE* 10:00 pm 04/08/09

K' 110 hours to gooooo I wanna be sedated (8)

*UPDATE* 12:00 pm 05/08/09

Ohhhhh 96 hours to gooooo I wanna be sedated (8)
Today Cheap Little Lying Bastard read (undressed) 99.2 lbs.
Am I dehydrating or what?

I want a diet coke.
I'll go to the store, and have another battle against the cookie stand.
I don't know if I will make it.
So I'll wear the "red dress" jeans, to remind me how fucking fat I am, and why am I not allowed to eat cookies, or food at all.

*Update* 12:30 pm

Mission Acomplished!
Diet coke + ciggies + matches
And the "red dress" jeans make me feel so fat I don't even wanna drink the diet coke .--.

lunes, 3 de agosto de 2009

#15 Lousy me.

Well, I did stuffed my mouth today.
I kept it below 500 kcal, and that's good.

(Picture, I've been eating around 4k calories a day, so 500 IS good)

I pierced my lip, and with that one I have 19 n_n

Thinspirate me 2

Where can I get someone like her?

domingo, 2 de agosto de 2009

# 14 Im fucking massive

I've gained like a million pounds.
I can't complain, I totally deserve it, I've been eating like a fucking pig.
Right now Im 110 pounds, and I have a normal bmi.
Im disgusting.
But, this was my very last day of bingeing, tomorrow I start a new week, and I've got the chance to start again.
Coz' Im fucking alive, I won't let myself down again,

As one of my favorite Maiden's song says

"If you're gonna die, DIE WITH YOUR BOOTS ON"

*UPDATE* Goodbye Burdett Road. I hate you, best friend.