#30 Let there be thy weightloss

This is still oh so fucking lonely.
Anyway.
Im 101.5 and I guess Im happy.

To be honest Im starting to give a shit about weightloss, pounds, and food.
I've got no money, ergo, I don't eat, ergo I lose weight.
But it has been so effortless I just feel bad about it.
I should lose weight by fasting, starving myself to fucking death, exercising for hours, not just walking and eating kind of less.
I don't deserve it.

(But Im thankful to all thy gods for that)

# 20'something... HELLO WEIGHT LOSS

Scale read 104.5 lbs

After breakfast, so Im probably 104, but I don't wanna get too excited.



I never thought I could lose weight by... well, eating.

I mean, I haven't binged properly, but I've been eating between 500 -700 calories.

Which is a fucking lot.

This week has turned into something really really good.
Im oficially over Ex fuck buddy, and we're now like really close friends.
Half japanese... well, Im taking things slowly, something I have done only once, so I feel all doofus, I feel like 13 again.
I've lost a couple of pounds.
Im over ex best friend.
Life's peachy.

#28? Breaking the habit.

Food crap....

I've been eating, fasting, pigging out, fasting, etc...
And god bless the plateau.
I mean, I don't like plateaus, but my recently adquired eating habits would lead me to nothing but weight gain if it wasn't for the holy plateau.
(And the fasting after pigging)

But, I must stop that "binge/fast/binge" shit right now.
Especially if I intend to fuck half japanese super hottie.
9_9

I mean, Im always brawling about weightloss being a very personal thing, and should be done to please no one but yourself.
But, I don't like getting intimate with people if Im fat.
Not because of what they might think, but what I think of me.
I disgust me.

So in order to disgust me a little less so I can fuck half japanese without grossing me out, I must stop this.

I must break the habit.