#13 My place @ Burdett Road 2

Fridge
Washing machine
Microwave
TV
Furniture
Weed
3 rooms
2 bathrooms
120 m2

Awsome place, quite expensive tho.
Totally worth it, I guess.

And well I've been eating like a pig these days.

I'll be doing this exam to apply to this career as some kind of translator.
I need to have "intermediate" or "advanced" in english, or french.
In my particular case, I hope I can reach intermediate on english.
If I do, I can go to school only on saturdays, and work on the week.
I'd like to work in a sex shop.
; )

#12 My place @ Burdett Road.

Well, we found this awsome place.
It's so fucking expensive, but hell.
Im pissed off.
Quite pissed off actually.
I fasted until yesterday.
I've been bingeing since then.
Not in the mood for writing, maybe later.

#11 So, here we go.

Have you ever heard "Mile End" by Pulp?
From the Trainspotting soundtrack (which happens to be one of my favorite movies).

" We didn't have nowhere to live,
we didn't have nowhere to go
til someone said
"I know this place off Burdett Road."
It was on the fifteenth floor,
it had a board across the door.
It took an hour
to prise it off and get inside.
It smelt as if someone had died;
the living room was full of flies,
the kitchen sink was blocked,
the bathroom sink not there at all."

I dunno, I have the feeling that soon, that'll be my song xD.

I kinda sold my soul to the devil (aka, my mom) and she'll lend me some money for the rent.
Tomorrow I'll go flat-searching with my best friend, and her friend.
I hope that with my money, and her money, and his money, and my mother's money, we'll find somewhere decent.

THE EX, told me his mother's flat was available, so maybe I'll ask her.
It would be strange tho, to live in THE ex's house, a bit painful.
But Im kind of masochist, so I'll talk to his mother.


I've been bingeing a lot these days.
I gained 4 pounds. x__x
Im disgusting.

Tomorrow I'll be going to the city so I won't be eating at all.
I'll be back on Sunday, or Monday, to see if the cat is still alive.
Hopefully I'll be down to 98 by then.

#10 Binge binge binge my darling.

As I said before, Im a food slut.
And I deserve a pathetic death such as choking on a cookie or something.
Im moving in a couple of weeks and Im really excited about it.

#9 K. and the pizza from hell

Well, I stayed chez this friend.
His mom made me eat.
(I had forgotten how is it to be forced to eat)
And I ate a sandwich and TWO slices of pizza.
Im gross.
But I managed to stay in 99 lbs.
Thanks gods of weightloss.


I fasted today.
Im fasting tomorrow.
And the next day.
And the day after.

#8 Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck.

Rejected.

And changed my mind, IM NOT DRINKING.

Now Im officially poor, I must save every fucking dollar (assuming I use dollars, which I dont) I have.
I can't afford being skinny, and neither the jack daniels.
But, maybe now that I'll be poor, I can really get into the fasting stuff, and as I'll be working my ass off to get somewhere (besides the bridge) to live with the cat ;P, and buying the cat's food, and kitty litter, so I won't have any money for food.
Hurray!

I hate myself for being so stupid.



Lost another pound, back to the 99's

#7 shalala

Lost 1 pound :D
Had 444 calories "yesterday" (considering 2:00 am as saturday) in the shape of...

2 1/2 cookies = 144 cal. (gross)
3 quaker bars = 285 cal. (worse)
1 half sized orange = 15 cal.

I fucked a lot. (That does count as exercise, rite?)



"Today" Im eating nothing, and drinking the world, and hopefully, fucking a lot too.
Or, maybe I'll be too drunk to fuck.
"Tonight" I get the results, so.... god Im so fucking nervous.

I want that.
I want to be the skinny bitch that drinks Jack Daniels.
For now, I can only afford the Jack Daniels.
But I'll be the skinny bitch, and that's a fucking promise.